dreamt of him
we became good friends again
don’t  think I really like him anymore
but yeah, we both were happy
we were studying at my house

(# ﾟДﾟ)

I NEED TO LEARN TO CONTRL WHAT I FEEL

WITHOUT CUTTING

yeah

lets see if planking can get me out of this suddenly triggered panic state

can’t breatje

might as well plank

aw shit i feel like cryinh

bleh I’ll cut later after dinner

I just want to protect you but I feel like he’s just making a mess out of you and insulting you doing all this and ; ;

fuck it

I hope he isn’t as heartless and abusive as I imagine him to be

I’m just worried

but if you feel happy then I’m fine

….what is this sadness I feel…

definitely worse than doing math

ahaha

ah well

he’d better treat you well

>:'(

feel super sick after heavy lunch
spammed chilli flakes and tabasco on my carbonara

proves that I’m in a good mood today, I usually don’t eat spicy stuff

….only used to with kw….

mentally feeling happy today like people acknowledged my existence like gp cher and well classmate so

hahah but I’m sick

feel like crying but I’m too exhausted to cry

my heart’s been pounding so much
wish I could just pause time and cry and sleep for 10000 hours

maybe I should make myself cry

pretty sure I’ll feel sicker if I cut
if I lost any blood

….so it would help if I bled from my wrist and licked/drank off any blood that came from it??

/googles to see if this is legit

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naise